Who Said?!

Yesterday I got the email with the results of my PET scan. Of course, it arrived after office hours for my physician. I literally spent the whole night on google, defining terminology, absorbing any instructions I could find on deciphering PET scan results. I even sent it to my SIL, who is a pediatrician, and asked if it said what we thought it did: NO CANCER?! We were pretty certain that's what it was saying, but trying to maintain our composure and expectations. Honestly, I was afraid to get too hyped, because fear kept knocking on the door saying, "there's a big fat BUT, to follow this news". Could it really be over? If this really says what we think it does, is there a next step? What do we do now? Do they do something about the tumors that are there, even if it's not cancerous? How do we move forward now? I was beyond anxious waiting for the office to call today and had a list of questions to ask.

I called the office about 10 minutes after they opened. You know, trying not to be "that guy". Longest 10 minutes ever! At first I thought I'd give them 30 minutes to open and get their feet under them for the day, but 10 minutes in, I gave in to the pressure and called anyway! Turns out my doctor is out of town this week. What?! I tried to control the panic in my voice, but I'm certain I failed. I mean, everyone needs time off, she certainly deserves it, but if this sweet woman on the other end of the phone tells me I have to wait until next week to have my results deciphered, I'm quite certain I'll be certifiable before then! Thankfully, that wasn't the case. Instead, she asked if it would be okay for the doctor covering to review my file and call me back to explain the results. Oh thank you sweet, sweet Jesus! "Absolutely! Please! Thank you SO much!", I responded.

I don't think I'll ever forget the words to the conversation that followed the doctor's return call. I walked outside my back door to stand on the porch and answer the phone, wrecked with nervousness. She introduced herself, but I didn't even process her name. I swear the world stopped as she read the results to me. The same words I read over and over the evening before, but they sounded so serious coming out of her mouth. As she read each line and I followed along on my printed copy and tried to keep my heart from beating out of my chest. After she finished reading the report, our conversation went something like this:

Dr: Do you understand what all of that means?

Me: I mean, I think so...I think it means I don't have cancer, right?

Dr: That's correct. The findings were negative, you don't have cancer anywhere in your

body. The lungs, liver, abdomen and pelvis all show no cancerous formations.

Me: Okay, so I understand that it's saying the formations or tumors, whatever you call them, they aren't cancerous. But what do we do about them now? Are there more tests, or was this it? I'm just not sure how to move forward from here.

Dr: Who said that? Who said there were formations? Tumors? Who said?

Me: Well, the previous tests that your office ordered. The original tests showed growths or something on my liver that caused concern. Then the second test was to examine those further and their findings were that there were multiple tumors that appeared to have originated in the colon. They said it appeared to be colon cancer that had metastasized to my liver and one lung.

Dr: I'm not familiar enough with your chart to know the history, and I haven't reviewed those particular scans, but I can tell you that this test is the most definitive and it says there's no cancer, and there's no tumors in your colon, or anywhere else that I can see either.

Who said?! My GOD SAID! He said I am healed! He said it from Day 1! He said it before we even knew the diagnosis! He said it on Father's Day 2019, during our Sunday morning worship service and He said it 2000 years ago with the stripes that broke the body of His son! Who's report do we believe? We believe the report of the Lord! Always! Every single time! Above any other report that may arise! We have THE report that everything else must answer to! My report is HEALING! Oh man, if you aren't fired up right now, maybe you should check for a pulse! I want to scream it from the roof tops! MY GOD IS THE HEALER!!!!!