All I need...

At lunch today Jason asked our son, Connor, the following question:

“If you could go to the store and buy anything you wanted right now, what would it be?”

Connor didn’t have a response other than a shrug of the shoulders, so dad followed up with:

“So you have everything you could ever want and can’t think of anything else?”

My sweet 7 year old’s response was “I mean, I already have Mom, so no.” Insert all the heart-eyed emojis known to mankind because my big ‘ol mama heart just exploded and then completely melted the pieces right in that BWW booth.

As I worshipped in church this evening, the Lord brought this conversation back to me with this simple statement, “All I want is for you to want all of me, I’ll take care of the rest”. I’m not sure what Jason was getting at or if there was some point to his odd line of questioning this afternoon, but the concept of what Connor stated is more profound than his little mind can probably comprehend. In a small breath, he has expressed the most simple concept that our Father in Heaven desperately wants us to grasp. You see, we get so tied up (myself included), in putting out fires that pop up in life and “how do I fix this and take care of that”. 2019 was by far the most trying year I’ve ever faced physically, mentally, all around. I know my Father didn’t bring it on me, but facing something completely out of my control has taught me so much more about Him, deepened my love and understanding, and really opened my eyes to all of the battles I try to fight in my own. You see, my only part is wanting all of Him and realizing that the rest is in hands that are far more capable than mine. What a relief to rest in such a profound truth.

I mean, I already have my Father, what else could I possibly want?!